definetely maybe

i have decided upon popular demand to start a blog to express the simply compound things that go on in my day to day life and mostly in my mind, up to and including bowel movements, romance (one letter in each person's name will be changed to protect the innocent ,for example a failed shot at love with "debbie " will be addressed as a failed shot at love with " debbi" on this blog..,,sports , seinfeld like thoughts that pop into my head all day ( today i was driving down empire blvd and wondered if the cost of putting fire hydrants every 1/8 of a mile or so is really worth it? woudlnt it be more economically viable just to let whatever is burning burn ? plus parking would be more ameable ..----.person a-" oh there's a spot..dog gone it ,its in front of a hydrant" ,,person b-" dont worry about it,,they let everything burn now,new law..park it dawg" ......it also would encourage people to be more cautious..now a simple kitchen fire started from laziness would end up in a total loss of property..it really would cause people to be more responsible around the house. haha...im just sick of looking at hideous,yellow 8 times a mile...,,,----------also i will be sharing about my walk with jesus,which sometimes over the years has felt like a moon walk,,but everyone knows the moonwalk only leaves you dead at the hands of prescription pills at an early age,and a different skin color then you started out as...but truly i am seeing God in basically everything now..where as the last 16 years since october 20th or so 1997 have been a physical abnormality on so many levels,and painstakingly difficult, i have finally figured out the roots of the enemies plans that he laid for me at the age of 14..he will attack you when your young,,to try to set you up for years to come.,if he can stranglehold you with lies and deception in your mind,it can lead to utter disease and breakdown of your body,,caused by yourself ,,which will lead you to apathy and self doubt and wallowing,,...i have seen the true meaning of the verse we wrestle against darkness and principalities and not flesh and blood,,the battle as a christian is deeper then what we see....but its never to late to recognize and destroy satan's plot..we are always victorious in jesus,,we just have to be willing to ask and let him work....anyways..i dont want to scare everyone away on my first blog so ,ill keep it easy and light until next time. the simplified lamen's terms point for non believers or skeptics is this..there is a 100 percent chance you will die one day,,after that happens,,there is a 100 percent chance something will happen the moment you die..there is a 100 percent chance that that something will be one of these three things,,you will go to heaven,you will go to hell, or you will never feel anything ever again....as a christian i know that something will happen when i die..but for argument's sake there is the third option of nothing happening...imagine that is true..and as a believer i follow christ..only to find out when i die there was no God..will i be upset? will i throw a fit and yell at the God whom doesnt even exist for deceiving me? chances are i would never know that i was duped..and never think twice about it..hahah..but what if its real? what if we are gonna spend forever somewhere perfect or somewhere very imperfect? we live in a world where we fret about everything,,careers ,money ,food ,romance,houses,cars...but its all deceptive if you lose track of the fact you are going to die,and you are going to be transformed in some way into an eternal existence the moment you do succumb..interesting? ..ill leave with a few quotes and a scripture,,thank you for reading ,especially to my family members who are sure to possibly be the only one's reading this.....also ..tonite is game one of the sabres playoff series with boston..i will be there at the game,,with eric magnussen (name not protected to protect the innocent ),jim carpenter,,and my favorite young child ever,sam carpenter...if this team and this city ever won a stanley cup i would cry like a baby for days..sports touch on so many different levels of emotion ,,if you dont get it,i wont explain it because its inexplicable..but lets go buffalo...we want the cup..16 wins........blunty speaking,,if you want to go to heaven..pray this prayer..,its not a dog and pony show..its very simple to become a christian.of course when you pray it you have to also believe it and have faith that it is real...im learning to see people as souls and not humans,,very very intense actually ,but when you have gone thru as many things physically as i have ,you just dont see the world the way you do when your healthy and life goes as planned.i will incrementally introduce you to the intensity of what my body has done to me over the years,,and also what i have finally learned in it all..i thought i was cursed for 16 years until last october when it all finally made sense,thanks to clarity from God,,every blessing and curse is your choice..nooone is cursed,and noone is blessed,unless you choose to be one or the other....anyways..thanks for listening..try not to start a fire,,cuz you never know when the hydrants will be vacated.....random thoughts from today...1) really it took me 30 years to discover the public market? 4 pounds of raw honey for 13 dollars? a thing of tomatoes for a buck? is this heaven or iowa? ..2) the atmospheric emotion in downtown buffalo on the day of a playoff hockey game is like combining christmas as a child and the first time you hold a girls hand ,all in one...i am 6 hours away from feeling it and get goosebumps just thinking about it...again,,sports,you either get it or you dont.....3) why did this librarian just kick me off a computer when there is six vacant ones in this row alone? sure it has been an hour and thats the limit,but im pretty sure when im the only one in the whole row,you can make an exception..its my tax dollars that put the chain on the back of your glasses ...4) hockey,,hockey,,hockey...5) " i'm day to day but then again,aren't we all" .... HERE IS THE SALVATION PRAYER: "God, I recognize that I have not lived my life for You up until now. I have been living for myself and that is wrong. I need You in my life; I want You in my life. I acknowledge the completed work of Your Son Jesus Christ in giving His life for me on the cross at Calvary, and I long to receive the forgiveness you have made freely available to me through this sacrifice. Come into my life now, Lord. Take up residence in my heart and be my king, my Lord, and my Savior. From this day forward, I will no longer be controlled by sin, or the desire to please myself, but I will follow You all the days of my life. Those days are in Your hands. I ask this in Jesus' precious and holy name. Amen." if you prayed that you have just eliminated one of the more unsavory options of the three things that are guaranteed to possibly happen to you at death..congrats....